June 11, 2018
It has now been 3 months since I received my pancreatic cancer diagnosis. Life has been very unpredictable and chaotic. There have been many trips to the ER. There have been several times I've been admitted to the hospital for 3-4 days at a time. I have completed 6 of my 9 chemo treatments to date. Those treatments have gone pretty well. I have not been sick or had nausea. I have had some pretty serious days of fatigue. Yes there have been some meltdowns and stress. However, I know God is with us on this journey. Mari and I have sensed God's presence and peace. Many of you have been praying for us consistently. We have received so much support as well as many notes and cards with encouraging verses and words. Thank you so very much. We can not make it without you and your love and support. I feel like that man who was carried by his friends to see Jesus. The ones who couldn't get into the house. Who went through extraordinary measures to get him to Jesus. Tearing through the roof to get Him to Jesus.
Here are a couple of my favorites verses that I hang on to right now -
Isaiah 40:27-31 Why do you complain, Jacob? Why do you say, Israel,“My way is hidden from the Lord; my cause is disregarded by my God”? Do you not know? Have you not heard?The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 43:1-3 But now, this is what the Lord says— he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel:“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
Here's a link to song that I am listening to a lot these days.
I am trying to keep my eyes on Jesus in this storm. I am leaning on God and trusting Him. He knows what is ahead. He has a plan and a purpose for me.
Sure, I struggle sometimes to maintain a somewhat normal life in the middle of the chaos and storms.
When I can and feel up to it, I am at church, youth group, and college group. I am so thankful for Marc and the youth staff keeping youth group going! I am so thankful for our worship leaders in both services.
Just want to say congratulations to our High School Graduates this year Nehemiah, Jamie, Glenn, Ethan, Caedmon, and Selah! Great job you guys!!
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